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August 22nd, 2005
 | 04:15 am - About Time
It's difficult to describe the relief I feel when the door to the room opens and in walks the missing link. I'm glad I got that instantaneous head's up from Teri because it gave me a minute to prepare. He's way too happy. The little monster. After putting me through this worry...but wait. Happy. Isn't that what we're supposed to be? Happy? Enjoying New York? Expanding our horizons? Would I prefer that he be bored and miserable?
He flops beside me on the bed, kisses me, commandeers the remote and begins surfing the channels. I stare at his pixie-ish profile and say, "Could you take your cell with you when you go out?"
He pats his pocket, only now realizing what he did. "Sorry. It was spur of the moment. Were you looking for me?"
Kind of. Sort of. Yes. "No big deal."
He mutes the box. "What's wrong?"
His sonar is typically accurate."I just think it would be courteous if you let me know when you go out or at least take your cell phone with you."
"Did Teri get to you? I'm not gonna live the life of the Prisoner of Zenda, Brian."
"No, I get it and I don't want that either. I wasn't going to say anything at all. I'm working on it."
He smiled and told me about his experience at the gallery. I ask the typical question. "Is he hot?"
"In a nerdy, quirky way, yeah, I guess."
Standard question number two: "Did he hit on you?"
"No, Brian, it wasn't like that. We had a nice discussion about my work. Neither one of us were looking to hook up."
Standard question number three: "Is he gay?"
Shrug. "I couldn't tell."
I smile. That usually means no. But I also find Justin's gaydar is often flawed. Must be his youth. I switch gears, not wanting to turn this into an interrogation. "Cat called and invited us to dinner at their place. Friday night. I have a greet and grope tomorrow. And the jail is haunted."
He looks at me like my second nose just appeared on my face. "What does that mean?"
"Which one?"
"Duh, Brian. The jail."
"There's a ghost. I've met him. His name is Sherm."
"Drugs, hand them over."
"I wish." I explain my encounter and he blinks.
"Has this ever happened to you before?" This is one thing I love about Justin. He never treats me like I'm crazy or an idiot just because something out of the ordinary happened to me. Instead, he approaches it with curiosity. This is why he's the only one I can tell about Sherm.
"Yeah," I admit. "Couple of times. I'm not the kid in Sixth Sense. I don't see dead people everywhere I go, but when my grandmother died, I heard her call my name that night and I saw her at the foot of my bed and she was smiling and I knew it was her way of saying goodbye. And once when I was a kid, we stayed at this old inn in the Pennsylvania Dutch territory and it was haunted by these youngsters who died in a fire there in the 1700's. I saw them in the hallway. Just a glimpse. That's it until Sherm."
"It must be the Irish in you. That mystic, spiritual thing."
"Or the Irish whiskey," I try to joke about it, but it falls flat. "He's not a scary ghost. But how do you feel about sharing digs with a wraith?"
"I'm fine with it."
I laugh. "That was knee jerk."
"I want to see him too."
"No promises."
We're quiet and then he says, "Thanks for not queening out, Brian. I mean about my going out earlier."
"I did queen out. You just weren't here to see it. And then I got a grip. We can't live that way, but we can't be stupid, either. I don't want my future contact to be with your ghost."
He smiles and reaches under my robe. "Could be hot. Invisible hands on this, stroking it, and then soft, unseen lips doing this..."
I shudder as he goes down on me, sucking me into his mouth, past it, towards his throat. I get hard instantly. He unties my robe and I slip out of it. "I like the corporeal better," I assure him. His tongue laps my balls, traces the line of my quadriceps muscle and then goes back up to my cock as his hand spreads out on my pecs. I bury my fingers in his silky hair and close my eyes, feeling the orgasm build. I call on my self control to prolong the sensation but it's easier said than done. "Suck it," I say in a soft, urgent voice. "Suck my cock."
He winds his fingers through my pubes and increases the intensity of his fellatio until I pop. I roll him under me and stretch out above him, naked against his street clothes. His dick is hard under his jeans and I plunge my tongue in his mouth. I taste that salty margarita flavor of my semen and it excites me. Soon we're fucking and again I thank the designer of this hotel for that padded suede headboard. So thoughtful when you're banging someone as hard as I'm riding him.
Satisfied, we lie there, basking, and then he kisses my neck and gets up to shower. I'd follow him but I feel too comfortable to move. The phone rings. I pick it up with a curse, resenting the shattering of my perfect peace. "Kinney?"
Brog. I smile. "What's happening?"
"We need to talk."
"About your wedding?"
"There is no wedding."
Bombshell. He sounds drunk. I sit up, fully engaged now. "What do you mean?"
"I mean we aren't getting married, me and Chris."
"Uh, what about the baby?"
"There is no baby."
"She wasn't pregnant?"
"Not anymore."
"Miscarriage?" Shit, does he sound out of it.
"She decided she wasn't ready to do the mother thing. She panicked. Memories of her lost kids or some such shit. Not worthy to be a mom. Not trusted. Might have discussed it with me, that would be nice."
I'm shocked that Chris had an abortion. Whatever her demons, she seemed to have survived them. She seemed happy. God, happiness is a precarious state of being. I say, "Where are you, Brog?"
"Boston."
"Why?"
"Dropped Kate off with her mom and sister."
"Why?"
"Need some time alone."
"That's the last thing you need. Are you okay?"
"Swell, Kinney, fucking A."
"You guys can work this through, Brog."
"Done, over, she's gone, it's done. Get it?"
Heterosexuals. They are so fucked up. "Come to New York."
"Why?"
"Because I'm here."
"So?"
"You need a friend and I can't leave right now."
"I don't need shit." Silence. "Hurts bro'."
"I know. Sorry, I don't know what to say, exactly."
How could Chris do this? She seemed so stable, so perfect for him. Love stinks sometimes. "Gotta go," he tries to say.
"Brog, I saw a ghost," I decide reverting to adolescent fascination with the occult may jog him out of his funk, at least for a minute.
"What the fuck are you talking about?"
"Come to New York and I'll explain." I know this man. I know his hooks. It works, I think. He laughs. Justin comes out of the bathroom, hips wrapped in a towel, hair wet, makes a fork to mouth suggestion that we eat dinner. I nod and mime the word "Brog" and make a "glub, glub" gesture to suggest his drunken state. I get a commitment, maybe, from him to come to the Big Apple for a visit. If he remembers when he's sober. When I hang up, I look at Justin and think again about how fragile love is. You have to work at it every day and even then it can jump up and bite your ass.
"Chris got an abortion and dumped Brog," I announce and his eyes get wide as he stares at me in mute shock. Yeah. It sucks. I get up to dress but a kind of grief has settled between us. Grief for friends, for a woman who helped us when we really needed it, a woman haunted by her past, but whom we thought was headed for happiness with a great guy, at last. A man who deserved better than he seemed to get on the love front. Another love story crashing and burning. He grabs my hand suddenly and whispers,
"We're fine."
He knows me so well. I pull him into my arms and inhale his damp, fragrant hair. I don't let go. Neither does he. And if we're lucky, we never will.
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| Date: | August 22nd, 2005 09:27 am (UTC) |
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look at Justin and think again about how fragile love is. You have to work at it every day and even then it can jump up and bite your ass.
I cannot begin to tell you how much I appreciate every time Justin and Brian have a normal, grown up conversation.
I'm also torn between being happy that Brog's coming to NYC and being sad that things didn't work out for him and Chris Nice way to start my morning. My favorite couple get to reunite in the best way possible. I realize Justin was gone for only the day but it seemed longer.
Oh..I feel so bad for Brog. He was so happy...so content. I'm glad Justin could once again read Brian's mind and reassure him. "we're fine"...that's just what Brian had to hear and what Justin had to verbalize.
Thank you. in our world, justin gets brian. and cares. ![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/16490307/2415224) | | From: | rose7 |
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| Date: | August 22nd, 2005 11:05 am (UTC) |
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While I like very much the prospect of Brog turning up in New York to join Brian, I can't believe Chris had an abortion and did not talk about it with Brog . I like the character of Brog, and I am very sorry that his relationship ended that way. While I did not know very much about Chris I am really astonished that she behaved like that and a part of me hopes that there will be an explanation besides her freaking out and feeling guilty.
I liked very much the way Brian handled his fears re Justin and that Brian told Justin about Sherm. you'll just have to stay tuned about chris. although some things defy rationalization. ![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/30494029/1337931) | | From: | sandid |
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| Date: | August 22nd, 2005 11:23 am (UTC) |
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Very Nice, Ran.
Brian and Justin have been through so much. They're still working it, working on it, working towards it. You make them breathe, Ran. You give them life and make them real. It's so easy to picture them and HEAR what they are saying. I tackled Cael to the ground yesterday for her Bob/Teri post. Today, I'm going to SMUSH you in a big hug, ruffle your hair, pat your ass, and skip gleefully away.
Sorry about Brog and Chris. But, B & C didn't have good history to fall back on when situations got tough. Most of their history together was tough. It's not really a total surprise. They did both learned to love again. Maybe next time they'll both make it.
Nice Ghost conversation, too. I'm glad he wanted to tell Justin, first. hey get your mitts off my ass! BWAHAAAAA ![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/112283402/3214077) | | From: | beth23 |
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| Date: | August 22nd, 2005 11:43 am (UTC) |
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Oh the gambit of emotions in this one post - relief/hot/sadness/love. You incorporated so much. I so wanted Brog to be happy he deserved it. Now Mickey on the other hand ... Glad Brog is coming to NYC, he will make a fine addition to this motely crew.
Happy Bri shared his feelings about being worried about Jus, the ghost and Brog. Now they can cuddle (Hee Hee) and your Jus won't go balistic for the suggestion. cuddle.... GOOD especially apres sex "Suck it," I say in a soft, urgent voice. "Suck my cock."
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Huge fetish for me: Brian getting verbal during sex!! Because it was so lacking on the show. This is why the S4 scene from my icon is one of my very faves: the boys are so LOUD! Oh, yeah...!
*Now proceeds to find the icon she wants, among the 62 she has loaded.WTF!?* Nice choice!!! i like nasty talk too This was beautiful, Randall. I love when Brian and Justin interact like a mature couple, working on their relationship and coming out stronger as a result. So different from the dissapointing last season of the show. Oh, what I would have given for the QAF B/J to have a real conversation about their fears and beliefs. Your icon is hilarious! Took me a second, then I was like... ROTFL!! I've missed Brog, and his friendship with Brian. He's at the heart of this story for me, even if he's not often on the front burner. Am I just being overly suspicious wondering what the DS might have had to do with Chris' abortion? Something isn't sitting right with me about Brog's story.
Whatever her demons, she seemed to have survived them. She seemed happy. Like Brian, this is what I thought too. Guess time will tell.
Brian's idea of ghost sex was squick for me; but the real thing was definitely hot. And I liked this part:
I wasn't going to say anything at all. I'm working on it.
Progress. ;) That wasnt brian, that was justin.I like brog and you guys are in for some fun | From: | (Anonymous) |
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| Date: | August 22nd, 2005 02:21 pm (UTC) |
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I love Brog and Brian together! Please bring him back. Love your Brian and Justin relationship. It's so tender.
Joanne Oh, I feel for Brog. What a demon grief is and coming out of it is never a straight path.
I'm glad that Brian invited him to NYC. It will do Brog good (and will be fun for us).
And, wow, such a great B/J conversation. Thanks, Ran! I'm so glad Justin had a good experience, but I worry about what Teri will find on Vartanian, since the name rang a bell for him. Brian handled it well, though.
Poor, poor Brog! And Chris, of course. Sometimes the demons don't let you go. It would have been nice if they could have worked it through, but sometimes you have to take care of yourself. I have to give her the benefit of the doubt - it's her body, after all. I just feel so sad for Brog. I hope he comes to New York - he needs to clear his head for a little while, and researching a ghost will certainly help.
Thanks for another great chapter!
does the gallery owner's name sound like a planet in the galaxy nebula? BWAHAAAAA Yet more brilliance from you two. Never ceases to amaze me how much plot and emotion you can pack into such a short chapter! Thank you, thank you...can't wait for more... doesnt seem short when you're writing it, but thanks A mature and conversing Brian and Justin! How I love this story. Sounds like Brog was really blindsided by Chris' abortion. I hope he comes to NY and Brian can help him. I was really surprised that Brian told Justin about the ghost. Really great chapter. I like to keep you guys guessing Breathes a sigh of relief that Justin is home with Brian , where he belongs and all are safe for now ......... (While silently acknowledging that this is Randall and Cael's world that we are talking about, and that something else will be along to scare us all shortly!)
I love the way that Brian shared 'Sherm' with Justin, trusting that he would not make fun of him! The conversation was delightful.
Poor Brog! He's such a sweet guy. I want to see him happy, and I still think Chris is the one - but, wondering if there is more behind everything than we're being told right now? ......... See what monsters you two have created ?! You could make me suspicious of my own mother! (HA!)
Nice idea for Brian to awaken the kid in Brog as a way to get him to come to New York! Those two are always fun together and I'm sure Brian will bring him around soon.
As always, a great chapter!
Thanks!
Totally Frelled.
the hardy boys reunited! BWAHAAAA ![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/36608943/2349820) | | From: | jendazz |
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| Date: | August 22nd, 2005 06:11 pm (UTC) |
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That was great, Ran. Loved their togetherness in this one. Hell, it's in your whole journal! If only others (you know who I mean) could of plotted their conversations and story lines as well as you two consistently do. Sigh thank you, but maybe those whose name will not be spoken lost their love for them | From: | (Anonymous) |
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| Date: | August 22nd, 2005 07:09 pm (UTC) |
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I have been an avid reader of this journal for several months now. I am really enjoying the move to NY. Can't wait for more! Yeah? I like it too. seems like old times for me Congrats on new job maggie! What the fudge what?? OMG.... you just killed me, Randall. Poor Christine... what she must have been going through to do something so extreme all of a sudden... or maybe it wasn't sudden for her. I can see how she'd have fears about being a mother with her own child (children?) gone and knowing what happened with Kate and everything. Maybe being a doctor and all she thought she could work through her issues herself and didn't need couselling or anything. I hope she and Brog find a way to work things out. I like Christine.
I did really like the mature way Brian handled things with Justin, and it's so nice to see Justin 'reading' Brian the way I know he can.
But God... I just hurt for Chris right now. Brog too, of course. But... yeah. Dang Randall you ran the gamut of emotions on this post. I absolutely loved the way Brian was when Justin came home. Such a mature conversation, I cannot tell you enough how much I love your and Cael's B&J. It is so refreshing. We're quiet and then he says, "Thanks for not queening out, Brian. I mean about my going out earlier." "I did queen out. You just weren't here to see it. And then I got a grip." These were some of my favorite lines.
Glad that Brian told Justin about Sherm, and loved Brian stories about seeing them in the past. "It must be the Irish in you. That mystic, spiritual thing." It made me think of "The Quiet Men".
The hot sex was as always an added bonus!!
Then the sad part with Brog...Damn what the hell happened?! I am glad that he is coming to NY, or at least I hope he is, he needs his friend right now. I love that guy and I was so hoping he had found happiness with Christine. Her ghost aren't as friendly as Sherm it would seem. It would be very hard to get through what she did without some major scars. I wonder if there is any hope. They didn't exactly start out on smooth ground, they have had some bumpy times, maybe too many.
Those last 6 lines...AWWWWW...I swear that is all I could think when I read them, made me sigh. Great, great post Randall!!!
He knows me so well. I pull him into my arms and inhale his damp, fragrant hair. I don't let go. Neither does he. And if we're lucky, we never will.
I don't comment often but, although I enjoy all the fantastical stories, the reason I read is just for the section I highlighted. Brian and Justin, together in spite of everything. Against all odds. God Bless.
Glad you likey Mai. Pls let us know you're with us occasionally | From: | (Anonymous) |
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| Date: | August 23rd, 2005 12:00 am (UTC) |
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Yeahhhhhhhh (happy dance, happy dance)!!!!I love that Brog's coming to NY.
I was really sad when he was left behind in the Pitts. Sorry it's under these circumstances but I love him and Brian together they have a great relationship.
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| Date: | August 23rd, 2005 12:58 am (UTC) |
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Just a random guess about Christine. She would have been in the first trimester, right? Perhaps she found out the child had a birth defect and couldn't deal. Real interested to see how this plays out. Something tells me I better stock up on the kleenex. she would have been, yes. no promises re the puffs | From: | (Anonymous) |
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| Date: | August 23rd, 2005 12:58 am (UTC) |
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Ah! Perfect. So much of this was just right on...I kept saying yes, yes. I really like how your Brian is mature and able to expresses his feelings. It had a fine tuned, perfect balance. He said everything that needed to be said in a calm manner. He made sense, and I believe Justin will respond best to that.
I chuckled over the questions he asked, and my heart went out to Brog and even to B/J who have to reassure eachother that they are okay because they've dodged that love is fragile thing for the moment. yeah my partner and I tend to feel the need for reassurance when friends break up | From: | (Anonymous) |
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| Date: | August 23rd, 2005 02:18 am (UTC) |
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Oh how sad. I really wanted Brog and Christine to be happy. Then again, I really wanted Brog (with or w/o Christine) to come to New York. Looks like I'll get one of my wishes. It will be good to have Brog around again, his relationship with Brian adds a lot to the story. Justin seems to feel comfortable confiding in Cat, but there's too much past between Brian and Philip for Brian truly to open up to Philip. Brog gives us that person for Brian to tell his thoughts to.
I'm so glad to see you and Cael keeping this story going. I was more concerned about the possibility that you might quit than about the end of the show!
Ann Marie we'll write until you guys turn out the lights or we kill each other ![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/67790334/4076942) | | From: | mdlaw |
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| Date: | August 23rd, 2005 02:49 am (UTC) |
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Well, well, well, things must be getting back to normal since you gave us great talk, great sex, a little laugh, and crushing pain all in one post. You're amazing. m can't say its boring! BWAHAAAA |
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